Been kinda busy with family and friends and work these days.
And I'm working at Thai Express for those of you who dunno.
Lolololol.

So I'll get to the point.
I rarely have time for myself. Been getting really few hours of sleep every night.
And I'm trying to make time for you.
Yet you tell me you're busy and you can't spare 5-10 minutes for me.
I just wanna work things out and know if you still want this friendship.
Sigh, just simply 5 minutes will do.
Yet you make up some shitty excuse.
If you're so busy, how come you can sleep til like 2-3pm?
If you're so busy, how come you reply my smses so quickly?
If you're so busy, how can you come online?
I mean, too busy to spare 5 minutes is just ridiculous.
If you're tired, it's okay if you wanna rest.
I mean, if you don't wanna see me it's okay.
THAT'S what I wanna work out in that 5 minutes.

I really miss our good ol' days together.
Altho we didn't get to hang out much, we were such good friends.
But no matter how much I want those days back, I know we can't go back to how we used to be.
So just tell me what you feel so I can make up my mind.
Cuz at the moment I'm hanging on the edge.

But obviously it seems now that you don't treasure our friendship anymore.
But I miss you so so much like a bee needs it's honey.
Sigh, "Whatever you don't have, is not meant for you."

Yeah fuck it.
For the past few nights when I'm laying on my bed before I doze off, my past memories come back to haunt me.
It's like a knife thru your heart.
Every night's a different story.
Seems like a bedtime story before bed, but more like a nightmare in reality.
Idk what I'm talkin bout, but it scares me real bad.
I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
Next year's a new year and I know it's gonna be a good one.
A new start.

TOMORROW is my first month - dry spell. ;)
Yayyyyyyyyyyy.
I'm so proud of myself.
Everyone should be happy for me.
Hahahaha. [:

Ok nighty nighttttt.

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